I can't believe that it has already been 8 months!! It really feels like this all happened just last week. Some days I am ok. I know Adam is in a better place and it is selfish to wish he was here suffering. Other days I just don't understand. I feel like a brat, kicking and screaming inside because I did not get my way. I am starting to wonder if a week will ever go by that I don't cry. I am sick of crying! I try to hide it as best as I can, mostly from Allison. She is so smart, when she sees me crying, she asks if I am ok and hugs and kisses me and then asks if I miss Adam.
Whenever I hear that another baby has passed, it always brings back the same emotions and my heart literally aches for the family. Until this happened to me, I had no idea that there was a whole baby loss community out there. I have met so many wonderful women who have lost their babies. We understand eachother and they are such a good support system for me!
Adam,
No matter if it has been 8 months, 8 years or 80 years, as long as you are in Heaven and I am on Earth, I will miss you with all of my heart!! I will always have a place in my heart for you and not a day will go by that I don't think of you. I love you baby boy!
Love,
Mommy
