It's not about what God has done to me, but what he has done for Adam...

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Name Gallery

I have decided to start a new blog dedicated just to pictures of Adam's name.  Feel free to email me at with any pictures that you would like to add.  If you would like to view the gallery or read about why I have started it, please visit my new site at

Dad's Hurt Too

I found  a poem on FaceBook that I wanted to share.  It really is true and I think most of the time, people do forget that it is not just mother's that feel the pain from losing their child.

Dads Hurt Too
 People don't always see the tears a dad cries,

His heart is broken too when his child dies.
He tries to hold it together and be strong, Even though his world's gone wrong.
He holds his wife as her tears fall, Comforts her through it all,
He goes through his day doing what he's supposed to do,
But a piece of his heart has been ripped away too.
So when he's alone he lets out his pain,
And his tears come like falling rain,
His world has crashed in around him,
And a world that was once bright has gone dim.
He feels he has to be strong for others, But Dads hurt too,
not just the Mothers, He searches for answers but none are to be found,
He hides behind a mask when he is feeling down.
He smiles through his tears,
He struggles and holds in his fears,
But what you see on the outside is not always real,
Men don't always show how they really feel.
So I'd like to ask a favor of you,
The next time you see a mother hurting over the loss of her child,
please remember.....a Dad hurts too

Written by author unknown

I love you, Stephen and I know that you are hurting too!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

And again...

 I am starting to feel like a broken record.  I miss Adam.  I miss him so much, I would give anything to hold him again.  To kiss his little forehead, to hold him in my arms and tell him again how much I love him. 

Here is a poem that I found that I really like

A million times I've missed you, a million times I've cried.

If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died.
To some you are forgotten, to others just part of the past;
but to me who loved and lost you, your love will always last.
It broke my heart to lose you, you didn't go alone,
for part of me went with you the day the angels called you home.
For things on earth don't matter, but now I feel so alone,
My heart will always be broken, my life will never be whole.
We might be parted for awhile, but our hearts will always be together
for one day soon we will hold hands again forever.


Sometimes I feel like some people are waiting for me to "get over it".  Guess what?  It's NOT going to happen.  If that's what you are waiting on, then maybe you should just move on.  Nobody is forcing you to read my blog, you can always "hide" my Facebook status updates.  This grieving that I am doing is going to last a lifetime and if it is too much for you to handle, if I make you uncomfortable, try to put yourself in my shoes and think about how I feel...

And to everyone else, thank you for your support and dealing with my moodiness, frequent teary eyes and saddness!