Last year when I was pregnant with Adam, I won a vacation to Disney World for 2 adults and 2 children. Because I was having so many problems with the pregnancy, we booked the trip for June of this year. This way, we would be going for Allison's 3rd birthday and it would give Adam the best chance of going with us. June finally came and we got to go on our vacation, but we were missing one of our children...
I knew it was going to be hard to take this trip, but at the same time I was so excited to take Allison, and of course, I love Disney myself. But I was not prepared for how I was going to feel when I checked into the hotel and had to admit to the staff that my son was not there. They had room keys with each of our names printed on them. When I told them that Adam was not there, they kept his key. I hadn't told them why he wasn't there, just that he wasn't going to be joining us. When I got to the car and told Steve about what happened, I was crying and heart broken. He went back in and they gave him the key card. Now I have something else that says my son's beautiful name on it! Just more proof that he was really here.
Anyway, once I pulled myself together I was able to enjoy the trip with Allison and remember Adam while we were there. I bought him a Mickey hat with his name stitched on the back. He was supposed to be on this trip and I had to buy a souvenir for him! I took the hat and placed it on a sign outside of the store and got a great picture of his name in front of the Castle.
As much as I would have loved to have Adam experience Disney World with us, I just try to remember that being in Heaven has to be like being at Disney everyday, for all eternity. (actually, I'm sure it's better than Disney)