And again...

 I am starting to feel like a broken record.  I miss Adam.  I miss him so much, I would give anything to hold him again.  To kiss his little forehead, to hold him in my arms and tell him again how much I love him. 


Here is a poem that I found that I really like

A million times I've missed you, a million times I've cried.

If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died.
To some you are forgotten, to others just part of the past;
but to me who loved and lost you, your love will always last.
It broke my heart to lose you, you didn't go alone,
for part of me went with you the day the angels called you home.
For things on earth don't matter, but now I feel so alone,
My heart will always be broken, my life will never be whole.
We might be parted for awhile, but our hearts will always be together
for one day soon we will hold hands again forever.


~Unknown


Sometimes I feel like some people are waiting for me to "get over it".  Guess what?  It's NOT going to happen.  If that's what you are waiting on, then maybe you should just move on.  Nobody is forcing you to read my blog, you can always "hide" my Facebook status updates.  This grieving that I am doing is going to last a lifetime and if it is too much for you to handle, if I make you uncomfortable, try to put yourself in my shoes and think about how I feel...

And to everyone else, thank you for your support and dealing with my moodiness, frequent teary eyes and saddness!