It's not about what God has done to me, but what he has done for Adam...

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Bad news, good news and more bad news...

Had my weekly MFM appt today. Didn't go very well at all. As expected, the fluid dropped another "1" on the amniotic fluid index scale making the fluid 4.3. If it continues to go at this rate, I will be out of fluid in about a month. I asked the Dr about our options when I fluid gets really low and pretty much he said we don't have any. He said that it would be too early to deliver, and he won't add fluid because it could cause pre-term labor. Well, I know Adam would be very small and have even more issues if he was born within the next month, but I would rather a small premature baby that has a chance at life than a baby that has died from cord compression due to low fluid. I don't even know what to do from here... Maybe I can go to St.Pete and try to get a second opinion. I feel like the Dr's have given up on my baby and I am helpless.

The good news that I got today, is that I should be covered by medicaid, hopefully starting in October. They will also go back and start paying past bills that I have been unable to pay. I just now have to hope that the specialists that Adam needs to see accept Medicaid. If not, then that will be another problem to deal with...

And for more bad news.... My OB office called and said that I failed the glucose tolerance test!! How did that happen?? I have only gained 6 lbs this whole pregnancy and am not even back to my pre-pregnancy weight!! Now I have to go on Monday and take the 3 hr long test. That should be lots of fun. I guess, in a sense it would be good for Adam because usually baby's whose mothers have Gestational Diabetes get really big. That would be a plus. I know there are other complications for the baby too, but maybe this would help plump him up for his upcoming surgeries.

Its been a rough day and I need to try to find the strength to get through these set backs.

1 comment:

Hope's Blog said...

I am so sorry your appointment did not go very well. I am surprised they have not put you in the hospital. I was in the hospital for over a week because my fluid got down to 5.4 (1.9 when Hope was born). I agree with you on wanting the doctors to at least give Adam a chance...I know how it feels when the doctors given up on your baby. I finally got an advocate for my little one and it really made me feel a little better when she was born.

Take care of yourself and Adam. I know it seems hard now, but it will be worth it when he's born.