Here we go again...

Today I am 28 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Finally in the 3rd trimester!

I had my dr's appt last Wednesday, I just have been having those days where I have felt defeated and close to wanting to give up. During my weekly ultrasound, the dr has determined that the amniotic fluid is low again. The last several weeks, all of the ultrasound techs have been saying that it has been getting lower, but the Dr would come in and find more fluid and say that its fine. I have been trusting him about this. Well, this week, he agreed with the techs and the fluid is about 5.5. It should be at least 9. Right after the surgery, it was up to 12. This could mean that Adam's kidneys are starting to shut down. I was so disappointed and upset, I didn't even want to ask any of the questions that I had planned on asking that appt. I just wanted to leave and go hide somewhere. Maybe this is all just a very bad dream and I'm going to wake up in a hospital someday coming out of a coma and none of this ever happened...

I am starting to adjust to this bad news. Its just scary because if the fluid disappears completely, then there is a high risk of cord compression which will cut off everything going to and from Adam and he could be still born if we don't catch it in time. I am not willing to let this happen. We have come too far to lose him from a cord accident. If I lose all amniotic fluid, then I am going to insist that they 1) put more in 2) deliver him early or 3)keep me in the hospital to continuously monitor his heart until he is ready to be born. Right now Adam is only about 2 lbs 4 oz. He is growing, but the growth seems to be slowing. I am not sure if this is because of his single umbilical artery or my lack of weight gain. I do plan on asking my OB this week if there is anything I can do to fatten up my little boy. If he is going to come early, then he needs to be as big as possible.

During the ultrasound, Adam is also still breech. With a normal pregnancy, there is still plenty of time for the baby to turn head down, but Adam is running out of room and the MFM Dr thinks I will have to have a csection. At this point, this is the last of my worries. I'm sure the recovery is awful, but honestly, I have an awful recovery after a vaginal delivery with Allison so I will be willing to do whatever is the safest for my baby boy.

I have lots of appts this week. On Monday we are going to St.Petersburg to see the cardiologist. On Tuesday, I have my regular OB appt that will include the glucose tolerance test and another fetal fibronectin test to make sure I'm not going to go into labor anytime soon. Then on Thursday, I have to go for my weekly appt with the MFM dr. Should be a very busy week.

Here is a bible verse Steve put on the background of our computer today that is starting to help me get my mindset back where it needs to be .

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.